“It was horrendous… there was nothing I could do”
Shell felt — and often, was — absolutely powerless to do anything at all, sometimes even to do so little as to move a finger. Sometimes, she later explained, she could will herself into lifting an arm, but only after minutes of strain.
Little wonder, then, that she felt desperate for some small speck of happiness. Hospitals by nature aren’t uplifting places, and they don’t pair well with anxiety, isolation, and paralysis.